duh.
Journal Entry: Sat May 31, 2008, 7:21 AM
Somehow, my last journal just didn't seem to be... appropriate anymore, because I'm not feeling very well at the moment (and that was the understatement of the year, folks), so I thought I'd write a new one. Besides, I needed to get this shit off my chest.
My mood is yet again rather depressive. I don't think there was anything special that triggered those feelings (although.. well, actually I DO have a suspicion - there's one thing akin to a reason I can imagine being the cause..), but still... I'm feeling betrayed and deceived. I hate it. And I'm afraid... afraid that I'll hide again in a world made of wishes and dreams.
My situation in school proves it - it's totally fucked up, and I don't think I'm able to change that anytime soon.
I feel like giving up again; live in my very own world, shut everything else out of my mind, ignore what's happening around me. It would be so easy to simply let go...........
but I can't bring myself to disappoint everyone who's trying to help me.
I just don't know what to do anymore - never before I've felt so lost....
- Mood:
Speechless - Listening to: this and that, mostly melancholic stuff
- Reading: 'Noble Dead' Series: Dhampir (in German)
- Watching: the screen?
- Playing: nothing.
- Eating: nothing.
- Drinking: tea
Devious Comments
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Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering,
fearing, doubting ...(Edgar Allan Poe)
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They say the definition of madness is doing the
same thing and expecting a different result...
Indeed it is, that's soooooooo true. I suppose I'd have not even half of all the stuff I've got if it weren't for my friends, really; be it games, books, films, fandoms, bands or whatever.
For example my fav. band at the moment - I only discovered it because a friend of mine took me to a concert 1 1/2 years ago. The fact that I'm reading quite a lot is my mother's fault. And so on, and so forth. And I don't regret anything of it xD
Good connections are always good for new things ;D
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~~ I feel lighter... Maybe I lost some weight... All that dilly-dally. ~~
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Baby cheetah!
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Baby cheetah!
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Baby cheetah!
looks like I'll have to go somewhere else to get one XD
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Baby cheetah!
XD quick, we have to think of something!
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Baby cheetah!
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Baby cheetah!
well then - what next?
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Baby cheetah!
great! so... when do we start?
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Baby cheetah!
after all, we'll be nice to them, right?
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Baby cheetah!
...now THAT would be interesting, don't you think?
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