Somehow, my last journal just didn't seem to be... appropriate anymore, because I'm not feeling very well at the moment (and that was the understatement of the year, folks), so I thought I'd write a new one. Besides, I needed to get this shit off my chest.

My mood is yet again rather depressive. I don't think there was anything special that triggered those feelings (although.. well, actually I DO have a suspicion - there's one thing akin to a reason I can imagine being the cause..), but still... I'm feeling betrayed and deceived. I hate it. And I'm afraid... afraid that I'll hide again in a world made of wishes and dreams.
My situation in school proves it - it's totally fucked up, and I don't think I'm able to change that anytime soon.

I feel like giving up again; live in my very own world, shut everything else out of my mind, ignore what's happening around me. It would be so easy to simply let go...........
but I can't bring myself to disappoint everyone who's trying to help me.

I just don't know what to do anymore - never before I've felt so lost....